Today I finished what is pretty much a memorial picture for my Mom. I started this over a year ago and have only worked on it as life allowed. It is the only picture I have worked on since she passed away in Oct. 2011.
So this feels like a huge ending of something for me. This work has helped greatly with my process of grieving. It is for me, for her and for all the things I can't say. I love to look at it. The photo does not do it justice. I want to live inside it.
I miss her so much and my heart still aches to have her hug me one more time. Words are not enough. I hope that she would have loved it...actually I am sure she would have and said mine mine mine to me. I can actually see her bouncing and holding it to her the way she used to when I made something she really wanted. There are so many things from this point forward in my life that I am doing for her. I made a few promises that I will keep, even if it takes the rest of my life.
I know that I am a slow poke with things and she was always impatient for me to get going with the things she wanted me to do. One is sharing my work in a bigger way. I haven't had much time to do that. Starting this site was one way that I am trying to keep that promise to her. I hope that by sharing what I do inspires someone else to keep creating beauty. Because that is the best way to honor life...by creating beauty and passing it on.
Blessings,
Leila
And for those that are interested I am calling this one, "Following the Sun", which has to do with the migration of Gray Whales. But in my secret heart it will always be the promis
So this feels like a huge ending of something for me. This work has helped greatly with my process of grieving. It is for me, for her and for all the things I can't say. I love to look at it. The photo does not do it justice. I want to live inside it.
I miss her so much and my heart still aches to have her hug me one more time. Words are not enough. I hope that she would have loved it...actually I am sure she would have and said mine mine mine to me. I can actually see her bouncing and holding it to her the way she used to when I made something she really wanted. There are so many things from this point forward in my life that I am doing for her. I made a few promises that I will keep, even if it takes the rest of my life.
I know that I am a slow poke with things and she was always impatient for me to get going with the things she wanted me to do. One is sharing my work in a bigger way. I haven't had much time to do that. Starting this site was one way that I am trying to keep that promise to her. I hope that by sharing what I do inspires someone else to keep creating beauty. Because that is the best way to honor life...by creating beauty and passing it on.
Blessings,
Leila
And for those that are interested I am calling this one, "Following the Sun", which has to do with the migration of Gray Whales. But in my secret heart it will always be the promis
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